warm and cozy

warm and cozy

Monday, July 25, 2016

Sometimes I'm awesome


or according to this young man....Savage.

SAVAGE means "Brutal but awesome"  according to the internet slang.

I'll take it.

This is my nephew, Trevor.



My brother sent me this photo.  They are somewhere in Nashville and he has found himself a new dud.  He plays guitar and prefers to play and sing the music of Johnny Cash and Bob Dylan.  He has done talent shows, local establishments with other talented young musicians and is earning is place in his music.

Usually only my nieces want to hang with me, but at 16 he has decided that Aunt Tina is cool.
Makes me pretty happy, I think he is kinda awesome too!



Friday, July 22, 2016

free shorts?

if I had known I would have gone long ago.  Really?  No, I am pretty sure my co-pay at the Orthopedic Surgeons today covered the cost of a whole box of the coolest paper shorts I've ever worn.               Disclaimer: not sure I would wear them swimming.

Let's see, looks like I have a torn meniscus, but we need insurance approval and an MRI to verify.   In the mean time I received a steroid shot to hopefully help with pain, but he said that it could take a few weeks for that to kick in.

I have mixed feelings.  I'm truly glad to have a diagnosis and to have had a doctor listen to me and my symptoms.  Yet, I wonder if I had walked in there today with the extra 120#s I previously carried for so many years would he have been so attentive? Or would he have been like the other's before him and ignore my symptoms, judge me by the scale and said "well if you lost the weight this would not be an issue".

 Sometimes it was not as nicely put and the thought just makes me frustrated at all the times I needed healthcare intervention and simply just had to deal with the pain because as a fat person I was responsible for everything that happened to me due to my metabolic issues.


Change is hard:



Thursday, July 21, 2016

let me off the crazy train.


This tends to be my expression most days.  And if I don't look like this on the outside, it certainly is how I am feeling on the inside.

In my professional life I have so many people coming at me from so many directions I am having a hard time keeping it all straight and accessing my true priorities.  Everyone I am dealing with feels they and their projects are the priority.  Our company is in the middle of an acquisition and I need/want to be loyal to my old bosses and I certainly do not want to put off my new bosses.  I really want to show them my capabilities and that I am reliable.  I am caught in the middle and I am more shell shocked than I anticipated.  I am used to pleasing everyone lickity split.




and to top it off... I really miss him, the boy, my buddy, our soldier.

I know he misses us too.  He loves his work with the Army.  That soothes me a little.

Chocolate would soothe me more.


so would a cherry turnover....never mind...there is a lettuce leaf in the fridge, UGH...I might as well just go lick the driveway.  Back to the chocolate.

Another god damn cruel circle.

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Dog, pigs, goats and some smore sum up last week

It was a full week away from the "other" job.  Others may call this a vacation, time-away, rest, heaven.

Me, I just had fun.

I took the nieces to the Farm Sanctuary in Watkins Glen for an afternoon 



They asked Uncle Joel for a bonfire during our overnight and we made Smore's, 


Mr. Pork chop was a three day old piglet that was rejected by mama pig and needed to be on a bottle.  He came to visit via some friends, he was so cute and cuddly unfortunately he did not make it. 


I ended up making a dog suit for BooBoo to get him to stop licking a hot spot.  It was a huge pain in the butt, but it worked.  Doesn't he look thrilled at his new threads?


These turkey's really enjoyed being fed and petted by the girls.


Then there was the big dig out and clearing of trees and truck loads of stone and then more grading and there is still more to come.  We now have an official crusher run road to the barn.  Things are moving along and this pleases the Professor to no end. 

As you can see below, the hens made a bee line for the coop when the machine started ripping out trees.

and yes at this point it was dinner time and I had the grill fired up.  Chicken, it was yummylishous!


There were sewing projects completed as well as helping Samantha move into her new apartment, that is very nice despite all the damn stairs.  My knee is thanking no one at this point and is looking forward to our appointment with the orthopedic surgeon this week.  The rest of me has reservations.



Thursday, July 7, 2016

Independence road trip

It started out as lets get in the car and go.  It ended up as a patriotic drive as we visited Fort Ontario and Fort Stanwix.

Both well worth the visit.

Lighthouse on lake Ontario that is next to Fort Ontario.  Lovely day on the lake


Infantry barracks and museum.  I loved the artifacts.  This fort played a roll in the War of 1812.  My grandfather Jonathan Chesley from New Hampshire was a veteran of the War of 1812.  He moved with his family to Waterloo, NY in the 1840's.


Joel with a unintentional placement of the flag coming out of his head.


Officers quarters.


next, destination.....


Joel was totally enthralled with the drawbridge mechanism and the massive doors.  If you notice the roof of the quarters to the left, they are two logs thick.  The construction of these places was amazing to me.


Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Started with a road trip

Saturday we hopped in the car and drove...

Fort Ontario, 
Tug Hill, 
Fort Stanwix, 
Dinner in Seneca Falls.


Joel wanted to check out camping at Flat Rock Inn, this is a place he goes on the snowmobile during the winter and is then an ATV destination in the summer.  He had a hard time placing everything without 3 feet of snow.


 The rest of the weekend was spent quilting this baby quilt and working on finishing some other projects.  As well as cleaning and laundry...oh and getting rid of a dead chicken.


This quilt is headed to Joel's friend in Buffalo for his first grandchild.  Its an original by me, just playing with different size tumbling blocks.  It's hard choosing fabrics and coming up with a design for people you have never met.   Hopefully it will be well received.



 I finished this cross stitch into a pillow for Samantha.  She had picked out the cute squirrel fabric a month or so ago.  She moves into a new apartment this month so I thought it would be a nice housewarming gift.


back to work Tuesday... sigh...

Friday, July 1, 2016

The force is with me.

Resistance is futile.  But when ever I have a camera he tries.

Or he is trying to impersonate Grumpy Cat.

Normally when he is on this tractor he has a smile as big as a bug catcher and the bugs in his teeth to prove it.

Maybe it was because I called him professor.  I only do that when I think he is being a "know it all"

Could be because he wanted to throw gas on the fire so they could see it from the space station and I said "no"

Or maybe I asked him to go to the grocery store with me or worse Walmart

I suppose that look could be because I inquired about another home improvement project

or I mentioned moving the furniture around again

Gosh, I guess there are a lot of things I could do or say to inspire such a "woman, do not go there" look.



Just for clarification its not because the grill is busted on the tractor.  I did that before I met the Professor.  This tractor can be a handful for someone my size and well I didn't have it in the correct gear (reverse) and let out the clutch too fast and the building was well "closer than it appears" and I hit the barn at the Willows.  Busted my grill, dented my steel sided barn and bruised the hell out of my ego.  And that is all I have to say about that.